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If this sober-minded call-to-action🙏 — even inaction undoing hurtful action🛑 — does not crack the cult of personality, then nothing will.⚖️ Good job, @Mitch Jackson!✌️

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Mitch,

Your letter has been rattling around in my head because I've been wrestling with a version of this question for more than twenty-five years.

Unlike you, I don't have the luxury of speaking entirely as a private citizen.

I've spent nearly thirty years in the United States Air Force. My father was actually my recruiter. My military career has been unusual. I started in the Reserve, one weekend a month and two weeks a year. After Don't Ask Don't Tell was repealed and President Obama was reelected, I fulfilled a dream I'd carried for years and entered Active Duty. The military has been extraordinarily good to me. It gave me opportunities, purpose, lifelong friends, and a career I am deeply proud of.

Ironically, some of my deepest political convictions were shaped long before that.

When the Supreme Court decided Bush v. Gore, I genuinely believed George W. Bush was going to be the worst president in modern American history. Around that same period I came out to my father, a lifelong Fox News viewer and my own Air Force Reserve recruiter. He disowned me. He justified it by saying my being gay threatened his livelihood because he had recruited me.

I carried that hurt everywhere.

During the Bush years, my opposition consumed me. This was before Facebook gave everyone a megaphone, but I found ways to make my opinions known. Every drill weekend I pushed boundaries. Every conversation became political. I was convinced I was fighting for what was right.

Looking back, I don't regret caring.

I regret becoming consumed.

The anger didn't persuade anyone. It didn't heal my relationship with my father. It didn't make me happier. It didn't make me a better Airman, a better friend, or a better human being.

It just made me angry.

When President Obama was elected and Don't Ask Don't Tell was finally repealed, I honestly believed our country had turned a page. I thought we had acknowledged painful mistakes and were choosing to become a little kinder to one another.

Then came 2016.

I still remember the atmosphere inside the Pentagon after the election. It genuinely felt like a funeral. People were hugging in hallways. Some wore black. There was a profound sense that something fundamental had changed.

Then one of my coworkers, someone whose backyard wedding I had photographed only weeks earlier, walked into my office and said, "I don't understand why everyone is so upset. They're acting like just because you support him people think you're racist, xenophobic, or homophobic."

I remember sitting there stunned.

Not because she had supported him.

Because I realized I had completely misunderstood someone I thought I knew.

That moment taught me something uncomfortable. Politics has an incredible ability to reveal differences we never imagined existed, but it also has an incredible ability to convince us that every disagreement must become a permanent fracture.

This time, I made myself a promise.

I would not become the version of myself I had been during the Bush years.

Not because I cared any less.

Because I had learned that constant outrage had accomplished almost nothing except making me miserable.

Today, I occupy an even stranger place.

As a member of the military, I swore an oath to support and defend the Constitution, not any individual president. At the same time, I have professional obligations that limit what I can publicly say about the Commander in Chief. That isn't oppression. It's part of serving in an institution that must remain politically neutral.

So while others are free to post, argue, and protest however they choose, I often remain silent.

Some people mistake that silence for agreement.

It isn't.

Sometimes it's simply duty.

I'm also three years away from retirement. That retirement means a pension, health care for my husband and me, and the security we've spent decades building together. Throwing all of that away for one angry Facebook post wouldn't serve either of us.

So here's the question I've been wrestling with.

If someone believes democracy, constitutional norms, or the character of our leaders truly matter, but they're also bound by professional obligations that require restraint, what does responsible citizenship actually look like?

How do you educate without becoming consumed?

How do you persuade without becoming self-righteous?

How do you remain engaged without allowing politics to become your entire identity?

I've already lived one version of political obsession.

I don't want to live another.

You wrote your letter as a friend.

So let me ask, friend to friend:

What would you tell someone in my position?

Someone who cares deeply.

Someone who cannot simply say whatever he wants.

Someone who has learned that outrage is emotionally satisfying but rarely persuasive.

What does effective citizenship look like then?

Because after thirty years of serving this country, that's the question I'm still trying to answer.

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